hihi!!

Automatic Mahjong Table

2007-12-27T04:47:00.000+08:00

zzzzOOMG. freaking insane man!

Robotic self-tuning guitar

2007-11-14T17:31:00.000+08:00

oooo. This is pretty cool man. First self tuning guitar in the world, the perfect guitar for kerby kwan hahahaha. Hmm i wonder whether it would be popular or not. seems like a solution to a non existent problem. would you want a car that can park itself? id rather do my own parking haha but thats just me.

i need a job

2007-11-09T13:06:00.000+08:00

fuck la! i dont how i have managed to spend so much money without actually buying any NICE stuff for myself. the bloody day-to-day expenses in this bloody country is insane la.

next sem i shall get a job. its just to painful to see your acct balance disappear into thin air so quickly.

wake up your idea

2007-11-05T17:00:00.000+08:00

I took somebody really close to me to tell me straight in the face what an asshole I've been. It isn't an excuse but for some reason I couldn't see the full picture of what i was doing until it was too late. I got carried away.

All I have to say is "I'm sorry". Those two words are so simple that they often come across as flippant and meaningless. But in this instance, I geniunely mean it.

I am sorry that you were the unfortunate innocent victim of my cold, unfeeling heart. It isn't your fault.

I am sorry for what I did (and didn't do).

I am sorry for being such an insular and selfish prick.

I am sorry things happened the way they did. I didn't plan that way. Honestly.

Remember I told you I cannot promise you anything? But that doesn't give me a mandate to disregard your feelings or absolve me of any responsibility for my actions.

This, I realise now.

And I want to make amends, if you will let me. Please.

-

Is Hell Exothermic of Endothermic (give off or absorb heat/hot or cold

2007-10-31T21:13:00.000+08:00

I just came across this while studying for a test. The following was taken out from the first slide of one of the lectures. it is totally irrelavant (since the subject is international relations) but is quite cool and interesting. wish i had attended the lecture instead of reading the slides 4 weeks too late, wonder what my lecturer had to say about it. cool guy haha.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Following is question in Uni. of Washington chemistry exam. Answer by one student was so “profound" that lecturer shared it with colleagues.
“Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?”
Most students answered using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands & heats when compressed). One student wrote the following:
First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know rate at which souls are entering Hell & rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving.
As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the world’s religions. Most state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell.
Since there is more than one religion & since people only belong to one, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth & death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially.
Now, look at rate of change of volume in Hell - Boyle states that for temperature & pressure in Hell to stay the same, volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.
This gives two possibilities:
If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature & pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.
If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature & pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.
So which is it? If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, "it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you", & take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number 2 must be true, & thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over.
Corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls & is therefore, extinct......leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God."
This was the only student to receive an HD

2007-09-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

"love on the rocks with no ice"

2007-08-24T14:01:00.000+08:00

life so far has been pretty good and fun over here, though there are a few things which i find myself missing quite often (besides family and pets etc) on a day-to-day basis.

1)jamming w the sonnies- listening to music makes me wanna play music. let all the angst out. its not the same by myself with an acoustic coz i cant sing for nuts and obviously theres no drums and bass. furthermore i cant play loud in my room at all, the walls are so thin. i miss DISTORSION.

2)dota w the sonnies- pwning huangming and bryan is damn fun la hahah:P

3)DRIVING- i had dream that owned a bugatti veyron hahahah (i sound like a 10 year old), miss having the freedom of my own wheels.

4)and some of the other miscellaneous stuff too:)

2007-08-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

is honesty the best policy? whatever the answer is, i think there is no other way for me. what it is that compels me to tell the truth? innate sense of morality (hah)? or obligation and loyalty? aiya. logically speaking white lies make a lot of sense; what u dont know cannot hurt you. but the world shouldnt function that way should it?

fuck la. this situation really sucks. something like this was bound to happen and upset the balance. was i wrong? technically no, but of course i am wrong. im really sorry that i do this to you:(

I feel like such a disgrace

2007-08-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

was looking at iron maiden videos on youtube and saw this. sigh, trashed by little kids...

Sydney

2007-07-19T16:56:00.000+08:00

Some photos first. talk later need to run downstairs to meet my friends for dinner.

Campus is pretty nice

Im staying at that red building. For the most part weather has been great, just a tad too cold.

The usual

Hmm. This place looks familiar

T-minus 11 days

2007-06-29T03:53:00.000+08:00

so. the exams and essays are finally over. obviously this is a good thing because i can take it easy now and relax. been living quite fast since monday; drinking, partying, clubbing, dotain, meeting up with people. but a side effect of not having any work to worry about is the realization that i will be leaving VERY soon. 11 days to be exact. shit. will just try to seize the day, treasure and live for every moment that i still have in good ol' singapore.

anyway off to tioman tomorrow. yay!

die larr...

2007-06-21T03:42:00.000+08:00

i am so unprepared for today's coming exam. and here i am blogging. bah. shit. wish me luck man.. less than 10hrs left.

2007-06-16T15:52:00.000+08:00

three words. the universal solution to any problem:

"ah fuck it"

plug the holes and seal the leaks. this ship is staying afloat.

2007-06-15T04:00:00.000+08:00

la da di da la da di da. im emo. its 4am. spent almost the whole day at home. at least im finally done with all my essays.

wheres that bottle of chivas? ah! there it is!

confuciusisconfusingmeandihavenoideawhatimtalkingaboutorwhyimpostingthisutternonsenseandgibberish

shakespearean voice:
"to be or not to be... tha..."

NO!

the question is: WHAT TO DO!???

a spanner in the werkz.

2007-06-12T01:23:00.000+08:00

emotions are a really funny thing. you think you can control them, and i can for the most part. but once they break through they really run amok.

i never intended to be in a such a position. to let yourself end up here is just plain stupid. or am i wrong to think this way?

steering clear of the cliff edge; something ive ALWAYS been able to do, but now its seems i must have tripped over a rock and stumbled over the edge. whats at the bottom of the cliff? im scared to know honestly. one thing for certain, it would mean change. for better or worse i really dont know, but its a risk i dare not take. so now clinging i am clingin onto that proverbial root jutting from the cliff, and trying to get back up. or should i just let go and take the plunge?? ah fuck i dont know.

2007-06-11T02:36:00.001+08:00

lamb to the slaughter...

2007-06-03T04:19:00.001+08:00

to all those also going sydney, i hope you dont become fatsos. forgot to add that to the list, not nice, nono it isnt. sad man, otherwise good looking people often comeback... less good looking. haha im damn mean la!

imagine what andre would be like if he lived in australia. omg.. zzz. sorry la i know it is a bit out-of-point but "andre" and "fat" tend to go together so,, ya la. =p

99% Sydney

2007-06-03T03:29:00.000+08:00

So, right now it looks like the probability of me going to sydney is 0.99. It will probably become 1.0 within the next one or two weeks.

i have seriously mixed feelings. why cant i take the positive outlook like a lot of my friends who seem raring to go? is it because ive been uprooted so many times in my life that i'm tired of it? or is it because i fear i might be leaving somethings behind for good? dunno laaa...

OK. looking at it logically:

+freedom (i have that in singapore)
+make new friends (tiring)
+sex? (not a priority)
+beaches
+overseas experience (enough of that already)
+subsidised overseas experience
+will still spend at least three months per year in spore (shows my attitude huh?)
+ysl

-away from home
-away from family
-away from friends
-away from pets
-no car
-have to make new friends
-sydney is relatively unsafe
-shops close at 5
-sun sets at 5

so looking back, the only real valid positives are the nice beaches, ysl, and the fact that my parents are gonna pay a bit less than other international students.

argh! im so negative! how the hell im i gonna mentally (and physically) prepare to move, and finish 2 major essays and study for my exams at the same time? what a mess.

2007-05-28T19:02:00.000+08:00

someof the funny pics floating around of our dear vice-chancellor fred hilmer. pictures say it all. look at that, he cant even wear his fucing tie properly.

2007-05-28T01:47:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just feel so tired, and just feel like giving up. when doubt creeps into your mind and you feel all alone, it really brings you crashing to the ground. do my peers feel the same way? are they as furious and hurt by the absolute stupidity and morality of the whole issue? are they just prepared to accept what they give and move on? sigh. organizing and fronting this whole fight is more taxing than you would imagine. sometimes i just wanna give up myself. after all i am one of the lucky ones with the options right?

normally i unwind in the shower. the warm water cascading down over my face has an amazing de-stressing effect. its the way it loads your senses i think, feeling the torrent of water reverberating in your head, the water licking and flowing over your skin. cuts all distractions out. but just now i felt so... numb, and disconnected.

the problem is made worse by my inability to open up, and collapse on somebody's shoulder. this is a conditioned thing, for Ive always preferred to stand on my own and not be reliant. i need it now, but i can't. how screwed up is that. its at times like these where i can see the usefulness of religion. damn me for being too cynical to accept that crutch.

but I'm so thankful to the many supportive people i have around me. my friends, my family, thanks. undoubtedly, the fact that they're there helps so much, even though i unconsciously strive not to burden them.

tomorrow is gonna be an crucial day. our voice needs to be heard.

i wish i could "SEE HOW" in this situation. my 'see how' philosophy has worked so well in the past, it would make things a lot easier now.

~

gosh i sound so gay. (jon is angry at himself for being so mopey, stand up you fuck)

blehhh

Forces beyond our control

2007-05-26T02:58:00.000+08:00

i thought i had finally found some peace, but it has been taken away from me.

i dont want to admit it, but the recent developments have really left me in quite a shit state. there is saying that "what doesnt kill you makes you stronger". i thought i was done with tough times and thought i could look forward to some stability.

i do not need to grow fucking stronger. in the end, i have no doubt that i will get through this, but its just so fucking draining.

im really concerned about the students who cant go to sydney, for some it simply isnt an option. whats going to happen to them? their future has become so uncertain overnight. what if they cannot find a place in any of the local unis? fuck! this is not their own doing, and they are paying dearly for it.

too bad. for whatever reason UNSW wants out. nobody can stop them, not us, not our parents, not the government. but we still need to try, and the lord knows how emotionally tiring it is.

talking to my schoolmates, talking to the reporters, trying to attend class, trying to settle accomodation in sydney, trying to organize the petition, trying to get into local unis, trying to study for my exams, trying to finish my essays. FUCK.

all this is affecting me. its so weird that i'd rather blog than share my grieveances with other human beings. i think talking to people just requires too much effort. even if you talk, they might not see exactly what you are saying, and you have reiterate yourself so that they do understand you. it is not something i have the energy for. blogging is much easier.

sigh.

2007-05-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

i suppose everyone in singapore and australia would have heard the big news about my school closing. it came as such a unbelievable shock.

just when i thought i had found some stability in my life it gets turned upside down again. i really dont know what i did in my past life.

i feel really bad for our lecturers. they are topnotch, remaining committed to us for the rest of the sem despite losing their jobs. its so sad when you hear about some of the sacrifices they've made. many have moved to singapore with their whole families, bought houses here and sold houses back home, quit jobs to come here etc. its ridiculous.

we are all just small players in a really big game. one doesnt need to be very smart to know why they are so keen to pull out. it makes their pathetic attempt at an explanation even more infuriating. false excuses....

oh well as a good friend used to say "lifes a joke, don't take it too seriously".

wtf.

2007-05-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

this is ridiculous. ive said it before, im waiting to be shot down. i hope im just being paranoid, but i can feel it.

what the fuck right? again.

jamming,

2007-04-29T03:15:00.000+08:00

another jamming session today. we had to make do without one of our band members who pangseh-ed us last minute. As per normal the recording quality sucks.

The Sonnies - Unwell

The Sonnies - Sweet Child O' Mine
This song started out correct but ended very messyily. didnt really know how to play the last part of the solo, its too fast so never bothered learning to play it. and at the end our drummer didnt want to stop playing.

2007-04-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

here is one of those posts where i feel angsty but cant get into specifics, and thus i'll just swear a lot.

wtf!? wtf!? fucking irritating! !@#)@!

Outbreak!

2007-04-27T01:45:00.000+08:00

i swear, i have the elite commandos of the propioni bacteria.

jamming

2007-04-21T17:20:00.000+08:00

lalala. the sonnies went jamming yesterday, and we managed to record a grand total of one song:/ was recorded on my new mp3 player so the quality is a bit better than old the old ones, but still quite crappy over all. so, here it is!

The Sonnies - Higher
right click and "save as"

2007-04-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

this is the first post in months, and it is gonna be a brief and lousy one.

its a saturday night and im stuck at home doing work. bah!

bangkok and chiangmai

2007-01-01T20:57:00.000+08:00

these pics are long overdue. im too busy/lazy right now to type anything, so will put the pics up and write later.

2006-12-24T05:22:00.000+08:00

bah! i hate it when i am in this sort of mood. and to make things worse it is so late/early. time to sleep!

2006-12-14T03:08:00.000+08:00

"Is it just me or am I all on my own again?
You're in the Taj Mahal, I'm outside Big Ben
it's driving me round the bend!"
-The Darkness

2006-12-13T11:29:00.000+08:00

i dont like being accused of not doing enough, especially when it is vague and out of the blue. i mean at least specify SOMETHING.

~

some people can be so blind and stupid! its so obvious to the other non-stupid people! haha maybe im over reacting slightly, i just hope it doesnt complicate things for me.

~

i am upset

2006-11-26T15:14:00.000+08:00

wah lau. i am seriously out of shape, and this fact was smacked into my face and rubbed reaally good. i was confident but fell flat on my face, literally. argh. and i was beaten by a girl! and a young kid! arrrghhh.

working out in the gym is 99% for pure aesthetics, and does NOTHING for your fitness. its cardio from now on. rar!

2006-11-14T10:12:00.000+08:00

the sun really does have an uplifting effect. what perfect weather this morning, sunny and cool:) reminds me of spring in london during my childhood.

anyway more vids of the yngwie concert.

a cool baroque sounding solo on acoustic guitar. he may not look like it but apparently yngwie was heavily influenced by classical music as a kid.

2006-11-12T04:37:00.000+08:00

hoho! ive been requested on friendster by one of those 'i-am-hot' profiles things, so its official now then. erps haha. silly as it is i will admit be feeling quite chuffed hehehehehe.

~~~~~

anyways, kai bought me a ticket yngwie malmsteen's concert as a part of my bday present! i went with bryan chan. the concert was damn loud, too loud actually, to the point of being painful. during the pauses and lulls in the concert, i couldnt even hear myself or the crowd around me screaming. i think the volume was also driven beyond the speakers capabilities, coz the singer's voice was weird and distorded! bryan and i did have some temp hearing loss after the concert, everything sounded muffled! i think the reason is because we were so close to the stage, had a really great view but at the detriment of our ears, will bring ear plugs next time.

after the concert we were supposed to attend a meet-and-greet session with the man himself, but it was cancelled, so basically we paid $50 extra for nothing. will try and get our money back from the organisers.

all that aside, it was a great concert!

video clips!

aiya its late ill put up the rest of the videos another day. zzzz

YNGWIE MALMSTEEN 'Unleash The Fury World Tour'

2006-10-31T03:46:00.000+08:00

fuckfuckfuck! talk about bad timing! arrhhrhrhrhhgggghhh!!!

~

do u believe in destiny? i do. just wish i knew what mine was.

hahahhaa

2006-10-22T02:08:00.000+08:00

students' feedback on ntu lecturer.

Justin Hawkins Leaves The Darkness

2006-10-15T03:42:00.000+08:00

Fuck.

if i ever had a favorite band it would be the darkness. in fact, i would go so far as to say they are the ONLY band i REALLYREALLYREALLY like, past or present.

i think to most people justin WAS the darkness, it really wouldnt be the same without him. his showmanship and flamboyance was one-of-a-kind. reactions on the darkness forums has been interesting. some say its the best for him, others say he is selfish etc.

im not one of those crazy fans types who build their lives around a singer/band. but i cant help but feel a bit sad. a big regret is that i never got to see them live.

aiyahhh.....

2006-10-03T04:14:00.000+08:00

gosh its amazing what you'd do when ur in a bored and unproductive mood.

lame. haha

arrested development

2006-09-27T18:44:00.000+08:00

i think my brain develops more slowly (im NOT talking about intelligence) than my body. im already 20, but i think i am just starting my 'grumpy-teenager' phase. i dont ever recall myself being so crotchety and pissed off with everybody/everything all the time for no good reason. every little thing is so irritating. and ive stopped caring about what other people think, i am number one.

sigh.

its probably just stress...

Dongliang's Farewell

2006-09-17T17:12:00.000+08:00

As we all know, mr liudongliang is leaving for the uk today to further his studies. so last night we had a small sending off for him at my house. usually these kind of sending-off things entails getting drunk/being stripped/dunked in a swimming pool (in this case pond), and later posting all the photos and videos online hahahaha. it was really very funny. anyone who knows dl will find the videos damn funny. we have chosen not to post the stripped-and-dunked photos because those are a little too graphic hahah.

this is our way of saying bye and him wishing him all the best! hahahaha.

"i need to puke"

Puking session 1
Puking session 2 there was a really a lot in this one hahaha.

haha

2006-09-14T13:46:00.000+08:00

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2006-09-06T02:43:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really hate the person i am. inadequacies, too many. and im too aware. ignorance is bliss. why cant i do anything about it?

theres only one thing to say at times like this:

FUCK!

:(

2006-09-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

steve irwin is dead. shocking news. remembered watching his shows in sec sch, he was so invincible. killed by something as innocuous as a stingray, so 'safe' compared to all his big croc encounters.

oh well, such is life.

2006-09-04T03:10:00.000+08:00

i have a headache, a self induced one that is.

i feel like shouting. shouting in an angry yet good mood way.

"You came to see the mobscene!
I know it isn’t your scene!
It’s better than a sex scene!
and it’s so fucking obscene!"

rrraarrrrr

2006-09-01T02:16:00.000+08:00

if there is one negative about ording its that i have nothing to regulate my time anymore. left to my own devices, my day will quickly revolve into night and vice versa. i sleep at around 4 and wake up at about 2, this obviously isnt healthy. i spend most of the afternoon dead tired, and i suddenly perk up at around 9pm. its 215am now and i am bright awake and alert. i tried a few times to reset my clock but failed miserably. i just cannot resist sleeping in the afternoon. at least i tried right? haha. will try again tmr.

i havent been putting the extra time to good use, at my peril. wake up your fucking idea jon (ive been saying this since last year)!!

2006-08-27T03:43:00.000+08:00

wah lau wtf. not fair man! some changes need to be made, its all out there i just need to take it. haha. damn pissing.

ord loh!!!!

2006-08-23T02:09:00.000+08:00

yay! haha. im happy of course. but ive been serving for so long that i feel a little bit lost now. whatever. haha. sleep-in every morning!!!!!!!!!

i have/had a website?

2006-08-08T01:08:00.000+08:00

hmm. i think many people dont realise i have a website. and its easy to understand considering i myself never visit it. it hasnt been updated in about 200years. actually there was always a link from here, "home" on the left navbar.

was feeling bored just now, and on a whim decided to look through all the pages again. what strikes me is how childish i sound haha. i do intend to revamp it eventually, when i have the time. buiding websites is fun. hahaha.

2006-08-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since ive updated so have quite a lot of things to talk about. for some reason ive been in unusually high spirits lately, which is foolish? the moody spells have been confined to short periods, and i snap out of them quite quickly. i should be more stressed!

so, tomorrow is sort of my last day in NS. will be leaving for hongkong on natday morning for my last and final safsa waterpolo hurrah. i hope it goes well, i want to leave on a high and am quite determined to do well. this could be the last time i play waterpolo competitively:( hopefully it wont be like in hk last year, where i had the dubious distinction of being the only player (san goalkeeper) NOT to score a goal in the whole tournament (queue jacking from andre).

after hk i have five working days left, four of which will be covered by leave and the remaining by mc haha. i have mixed feelings about ording la, yes like everyone else i have been looking to the end, but nevertheless it is yet another indicator of the rapid passage of time.

rapid passage of time- speaking of which, the sonnies and i visited acsi on saturday. now i REALLY feel old. it was really sad, in the past i remembered my sec school days like they were yesterday, kind of like the previous chapter in my life's story. but now, acsi feels almost distant like a completely different 'volume'. sigh.

we went there to watch an ib play called "haven", its about a orphanage during the japanese occupation. bryan's brother was in it, thats why we got tickets. the new acsi is AMAZING, with architecture that belonged more in a five-star hotel than a secondary school, think fountains and flowing water. the new theatre really rivals a major commercial auditorium! the play's crew were all damn cool and equipped with walkie talkie headsets etc, the whole outfit screamed professionalism and $$$$$ haha. lucky kids...

didnt get to see any of our closer old teachers though. as u can imagine we were all feeling very old etc. during the intermission we walked back to the old wing and visited our old class in the darkness to reminisce. BUT! after the play, as is customary, everyone had to rise and sing the school anthem. i was actually taken by suprise. for that joyous minute or so, i felt like i belonged, like i was back in the good old days. i sang my heart out.

another thing about acsi - the girls! wah lau they are ALL damn bloody !@#$ hot!! cannot believe the standard man! you couldnt spot a average looking girl! if only i was born a few years later!! argh!! hahaha.

other stuff:
1) seem to be developing chronic back ache. shit
2) had a bbq at casey's place a week or too ago
3) dislocated my knee again for the 1st time in a while playing u/w hockey. tragically it was when i was on my way to score a superduper-god-like-owning goal (stole puck, sprinted past entire opposing team and left them in my wake. was soloing all the way to the goal). i joked about how divine intervention stopped me, because my ego would have inflated to 2x the size had i scored that goal haha. suay laaa

pics!

Casey's bbq.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ACS(I)!!! wah lau! i really should have brought my camera, phone pics dont do the place justice...

fwiw...

2006-07-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

its funny how the principles you had as a kid tend to disappear with age. the world through an innocent child's eyes is so different from an adult's reality. in the past i would have said "i would never do such a thing". but that thinking isnt applicable nowadays, and here i am, the asshole. im not as honourable as i used to be.

i feel bad for what happened, but at the same time i know it isnt really my fault. id be lying if i said i didnt enjoy it. maybe im just the manifestation of a bigger problem? which is sad. i hope things work out. anyways for-what-its-worth, im sorry, to the both of you.

Karting and a Green Lamborghini

2006-07-11T00:24:00.000+08:00

Hahaha. Spotted this Lamborghini Gallardo SE in town. The owner must have seen my car and been inspired. He probably went "wow! this green mitsubishi colt is sooo cool! i hope my lambo will be as cool, ill order it in the same colour!" :p

pics taken with my phone's camera.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

went karting with the sonnies+casey+dongliang on sunday. karting really rocks man. i think the first thing i do when i start work is to save up enough and buy my own kart instead of renting the lousy ones.

the track was kinda crowded and we didnt get to go all at once, so we didnt get to race all together which was a real shame. kerby, bryan and i went together. i didnt drive as well as i would have liked, made 2 mistakes and spun twice unecessarily. but then kerby caused a mini accident. as another racer and i were catching (lapping:p) him down at the fastest point on the track, he spun right front of us making us take evasive action. i swerved and crashed! idiot. wasted a good 3-4minutes waiting for the guy to drag my kart out of the grass before i could get going again. make me waste money grrr.

me

kerby walking back after the incident. haha

haha bryan's helmet is wonky!

later on tofu, dongliang and casey went out. they were really suay coz it started to rain. i was lucky:p driving in the rain is quite sian coz the kart is forever spinning off unless you really know how to drive properly.

dongdong

dongdong feeding again. he crashed at the same spot as kerby did haha!

tofu

this is a really nice sequence of shots of casey catching a slide

andre's birthday @ altivo

2006-07-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

it was our dear mr teo's 21st birthday on tuesday, we celebrated by giving a very small suprise party. i must say, he was a easy victim, totally gullible and clueless. earlier in the day andre was complaining to me how nobody remembered his birthday, nobody got him any presents etc. the arrangement was that he was suppose to go out with yiming, who also pretended like this was any normal day. she would then suggest eating at altivo @ mt faber on the premise of trying something new, where the rest of us would lie in wait to suprise him.

everything went well and it was quite a nice celebration. this was the first opportunity for me to test out my camera properly. as you will soon see, the results quite boring la. havent really acquired the photographer's eye yet, or the skills to overcome the technical difficulties. shooting was a challenge, coz it was really dark and there was a lot of coloured lights, so the white balance was really tricky (wahhh). i tried shooting without the flash since flash tends to look so unatural, but my hands were too shakey so i gave up after a while.

us.

the cake reads "happy birthday fatty!!" haha

as is customary on your birthday, cake in the face!

renkai and apple

the guys

in lionel's words, "andre's going to climax soon". haha

too long in australia already, lionel needs a tan:p

the pond.

interesting architecture

andre's drink

later we had supper at newton hawker centre. it was pity coz i would have liked to have stayed around mt faber longer. there were views even nicer than from altivo. ill go back there one day

all smiles.

yiming, me, apple

haha i really like this photo! the camera was in burst mode while taking the first pic, and so this photo is the last in a series of four, so cool!!

yet more drinks haha.

the day i chose dota over clubbing with 4 girls...

2006-07-06T02:50:00.000+08:00

hmmm. i must be mad! hahaha...

photography

2006-07-02T18:38:00.000+08:00

oh no. looks like jon has found another hobby. yay yet another place to throw away money:/

i really shouldnt pick up another interest. ive too many already, and as result my bank account is perpetually empty and i havent given myself the chance to master any single hobby yet.

scubadiving, cycling, guitar etc. my guitar skillz are still damn crap, and my cycling hobby pretty much died the instant i could drive. sigh im terrible.

perhaps i just have a short attention span. intelligent people are impatient right? (haha...)

ANYWAY! the point of all that was to bring attention to this amazing photoblog, the photos there are really quite something. tempted to put one of his photos in this post, it would be a sure-fire way to grab you attention. but better not, dont know if there is any copyright stuff or whether he'd mind. go check it out la

the good old days

2006-06-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

*sniff*

in these months of 'suffering', i find myself reminicing about the good times a lot more. people will say it isnt really a good thing, because one shouldnt live in the past. if u spend all your time looking back, you wont have anytime to look forward.

whatever. no matter how shit life becomes next time, ill always treasure my childhood/teenhood. i had just about the best child/teenhood i could have ever wished for, and nobody can take that away from me.

da sonnies!

basket im not in the photo. was recovering from my stupid tonsilectomy(sp?)

davis is drunk!

2006-06-28T08:51:00.000+08:00

omg this is priceless, i had to steal it off lulus blog. davis is staying with lulu in melbourne. davis is drunk in this video and it is hilarious. the best part is when he tries to explain himself and talk coherently. hahhhahahah

bored.

2006-06-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

1. FIRST NAME? jonathan

2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? ya my dad

3. LAST CRY? hmmm. i cant remember the circumstances, but wasnt that long ago.

5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? fav lunch meat? what does tt mean? i like beef whether breakfast, lunch or dinner

6. KIDS? ya eventually

7. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? i guess so. but id tell him to wake up his idea

8. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? i have a blog

9. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? not really

10. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? nope

11. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? yup already have

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? uh, post peacan-crunch something

13. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? no

14. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? ok la...

15. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? macadamia nut

16. SHOE SIZE? 11.5

18. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? lack of focus and discipline. and i wish i were taller too

19. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? dunno la

20. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? would be nice

21. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? wearing blue fbt shorts

22. LAST THING YOU ATE? roti prata

23. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? nothing

24. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? limegreen

25. FAVORITE SMELL? haha a girl's natural smell:D

26. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? kailyn

27. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO? i really have no idea

28. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? of course!

29. FAVORITE DRINK? coke

30. FAVORITE SPORT? umm, (leisure)swimming and scubadiving

31. EYE COLOR? dark brown

32. HAT SIZE? dunno

33. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? nope

34. FAVORITE FOOD? beef and potatoes:)

35. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING? happy ending

36. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED AT THE MOVIE THEATER? "Crazy"

37. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? not wear a shirt at the moment

38. SUMMER OR WINTER? can i choose spring? okok summer

39. HUGS OR KISSES? both please!

40. FAVORITE DESSERT? uhhh, dun have fav dessert

41. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? nobody will

42. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? dun ask difficult questions le...

43. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? none at the moment

44. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? haha a mouse!

45. WHAT DID YOU WATCH LAST NIGHT ON TV? world cup i think

46. FAVORITE SOUNDS? running water

47. EARTH, WIND & FIRE, OR TEMPTATIONS? err.. dun get the question

48. THE FURTHEST YOU'VE BEEN FROM HOME? hmm. usa? thats about as far as u can get right?

49. WHAT'S YOUR SPECIAL TALENT? my lack of talent

50. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? singapore!

51. WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? fahim

2006-06-22T17:19:00.000+08:00

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

please give me strength...

2006-06-22T02:30:00.000+08:00

sigh. having one of my pms periods again. these next few months are so crucial, i dont know whether i can do it or not. i really should cut out all my other stupid thoughts. but being the dreamer that i am, it is tough. doesnt help that its now 230 and i need to wake up to go to camp for no good reason, other than to waste time. precious time. fukfukfuk

wah lau...

2006-06-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

you always see in movies people going "god! please! show me a sign!"

anyways i seemed to have one of these so-called signs shoved in my face today. hmpf, as if things werent confusing enough. i didnt ask for a sign, and so i chose to ignore it(for now).

im not the superstitious sort normally. and today's little 'sign' could just have been a series of very interesting coincidences, which is what the skeptic in me is saying. after all, we see what we want to see right? and things can be intepreted in so many different ways.

still, its hard to ignore...

2006-06-18T17:16:00.000+08:00

Mental wounds still screaming
Driving me insane
I’m going off the rails on a crazy train
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train

I know that things are going wrong for me
You gotta listen to my words
Yeah yeah!

*insane guitar solo*

song of the moment: Ozzy Osbourne/Black Sabbath - Crazy Train

used to listen to this song back in sec school. rediscovered it recently, it is damn shiok:)

2006-06-16T23:26:00.000+08:00

i'm mildly pissed off now. i think ive been really enjoying myself ever since the japan trip, when i say enjoying i mean i have been in perpetually a good mood since. so i guess its a bit sad to end this long 'good-mood streak' this way. i maintained this 'streak' even under stress, so to have it end like this is damn retarded. i think i need to wake up my idea and come back to reality. lifes isnt all soft fluffy clouds and teddy bears. the teddy bears sometimes carry knives.

do i really need to protect myself and be a jerk? fuck la

am i overreacting? probably. then again you knew what i was talking about right away didnt you? im really irrational now, and i hate that.

poblem engrish attacks a gp teacher!

2006-06-09T00:59:00.000+08:00

check it out.

ive been aware of this blog for quite awhile but havent felt compelled to write about it until now. its basically a blog dedicated to the lousy standard of english here in singapore. the author has a really sharp eye and there are some really hilarious entries.

the main reason why i havent talked about it before is that i didnt feel i was 'qualified' to do so, because my english sux too and im sure he'd be able to get a lot of material from me haha. so i do have a bit of empathy for his victims.

BUT! when the victim is a-level gp teacher, the rules change! it is damn funny! in the teacher's defense, the mistakes are all really minor (but still funny). and from reading his blog, he does seem like a really cool teacher, making this extra effort and all.

okok i know "poblemenglish" blog is a bit mean and slightly snobbish, but what the heck. i like to laugh at people heh and i dont mind them laughing at me in return. everyone should just "relac" and laugh. then the world would be a better place.

(i felt like puking when i reread the last sentence above, its ssoooo cheesy, but its still true dont u think?)

Jamming and Japan

2006-06-05T12:40:00.000+08:00

1st post in ages. went jamming with the sonnies on saturday. we have a new singer now (marcus aw) because davis is already in melb. soon marcus will be going to london, then the sonnies will be stuck again without a singer. hai...

we also had a new bassist! kerby kwan! and we are very proud of him because its quite an amazing achievement for a dog to be able to play bass! hahhaa

the session was alright. we didnt prepare enough (as usual) and couldnt decide what songs we wanted to play. we tried a lot but only managed one to completion. so here it is:

The Darkness - I Believe in a Thing Called Love
I think the song turned out pretty good! except for the crappy lead guitarist (me) who screwed up the solos and spoiled an otherwise decent effort. in my defense i shall say that the darkness solos tend to be rather more difficult, so maybe we were slightly overambitious with this one.

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japan was amazing. it was a pig's holiday, all we really did was eat and eat and eat. haha shit after a totally amazing and out-of-this-world 2 weeks, two lines is all i can come up with. it was shiok la! im concise ok?

2006-05-11T20:35:00.000+08:00

haha ok getting excited now. sayonara everyone!!!

2006-05-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

my phone got wet and is now spoilt. fuck la. dun really want to talk about it. luckily sg phones cant be used in japan so ill just leave it in the dehumidifyng cabinet for 2 weeks and see how it goes.

am leaving in 2 hours but still havent really packed, somehow not feeling very enthusiastic. i think i have pms...

2006-05-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

i miss diving already. its like waking up from a really cool surreal dream and wanting fall back asleep and back to that dream. id forgotten how shiok diving is, stopped diving for too long, and im glad im back able to do it again. yay. anyways that stupid dongliang hasnt uploaded all the photos yet. can check some of his older photos at his flickr.

im flying off to japan tomorrow night. its gonna be shiok holiday too, but in a very different way haha. yummy food! like watching japan hour! and im going with my parents so no need to feel guilty when indulging in all the good stuff haha. its been a really long time since we've had a family holiday.

2006-05-08T19:17:00.000+08:00

i hate fiberglass

2006-05-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

arrrgh. just returned from a fantastic diving trip (many photos to come) but right now i am just itching all over from the stupid glass fibers picked up from the boat ride. shouldnt fiberglass surfaces be sealed or something? it gets into your skin and causes great discomfort, even after a hot bath.

anyways a quick google yielded this story; a lady's life was almost ruined because of the fiberglass ventilation ducts in her home.

i also searched for tips on ridding the itch. one of them is to use duct tape and stick all the fibers off your body. duct tape on my leg hair? i think not...

a certain kind of elation...

2006-04-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

what is it like? ive never experienced this particular type before.

i want my troubles to be erased in an instant, i want to scream my heart out in triumph, and i want to enjoy life carefree for awhile. its been too long.

i dont want to just dream about it, i must make it happen, i believe i can, i have to...

haha this is so cool!

2006-04-18T18:56:00.000+08:00

Juggernaut Optimized for Nocturnal Assassination, Thorough Harm and Accurate Nullification

Jamming!

2006-04-16T14:28:00.000+08:00

yesterday was one of those really long days, long but fun. today the group was slightly different. tofuchrisong is studying/slacking in melbourne, but now at last we have a halfdecent singer, davis ng!

so i woke up at 1245 and got ready to leave for the jamming studio which we booked for 2pm. I was determined to be on time and not waste all our money, which is usually what happens. this was not to be.

first off i had to call kerby like four times before he answered his phone and then he was in his usual "incoherent-still-sleeping mode". So basically he didnt want to go "so early" even when i was almost at his house ready to pick him up. turns out that the fool played dota till 9am *rolls eyes*.

Ok nevermind. i must have wasted about 20min already. so then i pick up huangming. then davis calls and has no idea how to get there and he wanted me to buy mcdonalds for his gf *rolls eyes*.

so between giving him directions, ordering mcdonalds, picking up huangming, picking up bryan and trying to wake up kerby, we lost a lot of time. we were already late once we got there, whats more we still hadnt setup yet. "my amp is spoilt!" "where's my guitar strap?!" "help me tune my guitar!" "youre still out of tune!" etc. it was almost 3pm by the time we got started!!!! this is how the sonnies operate -_-

anyways, here are the fruits of our hourlongish jam session. for our egos sake, id recommend you listen to them with head/earphones coz they sound crap through speakers. we need to find a better way to record our songs...

Oasis - Don't Look Back in Anger
this is a simple acoustic version. bryan on acoustic guitar and davis singing. quite nice

Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Otherside
ahh. after listening to it, its obvious that a tinnny change would have made a huge difference. the bass guitar(bryan) is too soft. frustrating. otherwise not too bad.

The Killers - Mr. Brightside
wah. this probably the most tiring song to play on guitar. davis still dare complain about "tiring to sing". my fingers were almost cramping!

The Darkness - I Believe in a Thing Called Love
this is not the full song but i decided to put it up because i got damn high playing it. it was totally impromptu and materialized out of nowhere. we were fooling about when bryan started playing the bass line of the song, i then joined in and so did huangming. there was no singing coz davis didnt know the words. the song fizzled to an end when i tried to do the solo haha. the darkness rock! i would love to play more of there songs, trouble is, the guitar solos are crazy difficult and the singing is just impossible!

~~~~~~~~~~

so after jamming we met up with david lee and justin lim! havent seen them in ages so it was really good. justin(aka piggy) has lost so much weight! we played dota... (yes yes no life i know!) a side benefit from playing so often is that we are quite good now, trashing piggy felt damn good muahahaha. heh we are nerds.

after jamming we went to check out a concert at esplanade. the band playing were "7 till dawn", they consist of smu students, and i got to know them through my mom (who works in smu). they were damn good.

after that? sleep! haha ok shagged from typing so much bye!

2006-04-11T23:49:00.000+08:00

time is running out fast. shit. time to hit the panic button

~

finally! after many months davis ng cheng-hui has at last launched his blog. what are you waiting for!? go and post embarassing/defamatory stuff on his tagboard now!

random recent photos

2006-04-10T01:23:00.000+08:00

its andre the sex man!

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Exotic car sighting near expo, lamborghini gallardo. young(i think) lady driver.

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i dun even know why i took a photo of this. im walking downstairs in far east shopping centre and the place stunk so badly. the reason became obvious soon enough, evidently someone mistook the stairwell for the toilet. hmm.

miss singapore 2006

2006-04-09T21:39:00.000+08:00

what!? wasnt the choice obvious!?

2006-04-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

i am so frustrated with the stupidity and inflexibility of some people in a certain organisation. do they know how their inconsequential decisions have such a huge impact on my life? i guess not. do they care? well i dont suppose they can. organisations wouldnt be able to function if they cared about every single one of their employees little problems. its not practical. sigh

another car

2006-03-31T21:31:00.000+08:00

so my dad calls me and tells me that "theres this ferrari on display at my office, come down and have a look.

so i got really excited thinking that i might see the new 599GTB or maybe a F430. so was kinda disappointed when it turned out to be one of those fake f1 display cars. *apparently* its a real 2004 car, just without the engine, at least thats what the girl said. i doubt it though i must admit its done really well(if fake).

anyway since its the melb grandprix this weekend, i shall celebrate by posting an old pic from 2003! i bet that those would do well on ebay!

nice car, nice ladies, nice food!

2006-03-17T01:31:00.000+08:00

weeeee! kai and i attended the official launch of the Lexus IS250 at ritz carlton! was quite exciting even though ive seen a hundred photos of the car before. must have the 'glam-ness' of being in a hotel and all the music, smoke and light effects when the car was unveiled. and not forgetting all the hot models! denise keller was the emcee, didnt manage to get a pic with her though:(

was quite annoyed at the way some people chionged the buffet. i dunno whether it is "typical singaporean" or just "typical human being", but i was really expecting more civility. it was disgusting how some of them stacked the oysters on their plate. the point of coming was to see the cars and not to get a free dinner. the people there werent exactly underpriviledged either. kai and i only managed 1 oyster each. whatever. it left more room around the cars for us.

the car itself is really nice. it exudes real european-like quality and i think it looks better than both its main rivals, the BMW 3 Series and Merc E Class. Its quicker than the equivalant BMW320 and Merc E200 models too (0-100kph in 8.4sec). and obviously cheaper and better value. I really love it! just hope it doesnt become too common a sight and meld with the rest of the characterless traffic. wish i could trade my mitsubishi for it heheehehe. fat chance...

bring on the pics!

us

scanned the polariod photo of us and the IS250's Chief Engineer! Suguya Fukusato. hes seems like quite a funky dude, younger than you would expect, being chief engineer and all...

this model is really hot in person. the photo doesnt really do her much justice. she said to me after taking the photo "are you here for the car or the models?" hahaha.

a better shot of me and the car

OMG!! its WENDY JACOBS!! wahhhh

yes i know its 'pangsai' green but i like this colour the best. kai didnt. she has no taste.

more hot models! look at how tall they are! the one on the left reminds me of maggie gyllenhaal.

"look at me! im a midget!"

failed attempt at an "artistic" photo. the place is really nice in real life, overlooks the pool.

another out-of-point photo. cala lillies at oriental hotel lobby. we ate steak sandwiches at morton's bar. mmmmm.

all in all a really great night!

once again my stupidity gets the better of me

2006-03-16T00:40:00.000+08:00

i must be quite a morbid/weird person to take photos of my blisters and blog about them online.

anyways here is another valuable lesson: "running without socks in brand new shoes is a bad idea" haha it isnt as bad as it looks la

2006-03-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

ah crap. i reached home at about 6pm and promptly fell asleep. so now at 11pm i am wide awake and hungry.

right now all i can think about is the cabonara pasta at "Amici", and i have to live with the fact that absolutely NOTHING in this world can satisfy this craving right now.

I HATE BEING HUNGRY AT NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!

options:
1) order mcdonalds (+convenient -lousy food)
2) upper bukit timah (+better food -not in the mood for prata, lazy to drive)
3) go downstairs and hope for a miracle (red rock?)
4) maggi mee (-too much effort)
4) go and sleep again...

the past 3 weeks...

2006-03-11T00:50:00.001+08:00

went out with kai and we decided to try a new place for dinner. ended up at a restaurant called "epicurious". great food! had a very 'home-cooked' feel to it. they also serve the best apple crumble in singapore, seriously. it gets the "jon chan seal or approval" ;)

~

fux. didnt expect it to come back. i think things have changed on the otherside. need to resist again

~

the past 3 weeks...

2006-03-11T00:50:00.000+08:00

siann

2006-03-08T18:22:00.000+08:00

really feel like going out tonight but everyone is either sick or busy. sigh. somebody rescue me!!!

blah blah

2006-03-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

i had lunch at acsi today with karl and kerby. i comfortable and weird at the same time. or maybe it was weird BECAUSE i felt comfortable. heh.

did you know that the IB students wear HUGO BOSS (!) neck-ties? wtf!? and its ugly! i bet i could design a nicer tie. and the girls' uniforms are even more fugly! i bet i could design much nicer uniforms too hehe;)

anyways for those who havent heard, ive got a new phone:) Samsung D600. i used to think that phone cameras were useless and a waste of time. but the D600's cam is pretty decent (2megapix)! and the main thing is that you have it with you all the time. so here is a mini photo diary of the last few days:

sandcastles! my unit had a cohesion day at sentosa. there was a sandcastle building competition among other things, here is the 2nd place winner. impressive huh?

watched the opening day of the "Milo Asia Swimming Championship". the facilities at the sports school are AMAZING. just look at the pic! wah lau!

ruiqiang, boon, me, zhiloong. taken after our unit's mini biathlon. was pretty fun. our team won so got a 2 free goodies: air freshener machine and a shaver! hehe im a cheapskate. need to work on my running:(

Ferrari F430!! drooollll. taken at ikea. you'd think ferrari owners would buy their furniture elsewhere...

my friend jeff the pervert. hahahahahahah hes gonna kill me! kidding la!

nostalgia!

2006-03-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

when i was younger, i used to frequent this steak restaurant in coronation plaza fairly often. ive just realised that i havent been there in FOUR YEARS, and that scares me. where did all that time go!?

i must have walked past that door a dozen times during this period, but for some inexplicible reason, i never actually stepped in.

so i ate dinner there by myself today. the coolest thing was that when i stepped in, it was like going back in time! absolutely nothing had changed! the staff, the decor, everything! the aunty remembered me and said "wow your all grown up now etc." i know its so cliche, but i really felt quite happy.

in this ever changing world, i cling on to these little things that remind me of a more carefree and idyllic life. so much has changed recently. this restaurant truely is a gem!

so now i am reminded of and miss the malay uncle who used to cut my hair during primary school days, who until recently was still working at coronation. i hope he is well.

rar!

2006-02-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

damnsit. as i write this, i am having this really gay prank pulled on me. someone added me on msn pretending to be girl "i picked up at zouk". hahaha ya right. at the same time she added andre telling him that she is "jon's friend" and that i said he was "really handsome".

INFURIATING!

whos behind this! prime suspect is Sean Bai Bing Yi. but apparently not. well the saga continues...

Do! Now!

2006-02-20T18:49:00.000+08:00

dear friends, please do my "Johari's Window" and "Nohari's Window". it'll only take a minute and is quite interesting:)

http://kevan.org/johari?name=jonchan

http://kevan.org/nohari?name=jonchan

2006-02-16T01:31:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really think im a retard. lol hahahaha

standing on my own

2006-02-05T17:03:00.000+08:00

i have tried to write music before, and it proved to be one of the most futile experiences ive ever had.

but it was different today. it was simply amazing how the words and music just flowed into a coherent song. as cliche as it sounds, music really does come from emotions, and cant be forced. if not all your songs will end up sounding like franz ferdinand:/

i could write a song today because my emotions were so REAL and very private. private, thus i can safely say that no one else will EVER hear it.

if all the music written out there really do come from true feelings, it makes me wonder how these 'feelings' can be so inpersonably publicized like that. maybe im just the type to sing quietly to myself, instead of shouting/crying it out to the world. thank goodness i have this outlet, if not i might just die.

i need revival

2006-02-03T22:06:00.000+08:00

i dont really know how to describe how ive been feeling the past few weeks, it seems that i have been enveloped in a thick, damp blanket, which has been quelling my enthusiasm for almost everything. lethargy. as evidenced by my reluctance even to blog, something i used to enjoy doing.

yesterday was particularly awful. i was definatety slightly under the weather. i suspect wednesday's ndu biathlon training was largely to blame. swimming 6.2 kilometers might be nothing to some, but it is A LOT to a hum-bug, part-time 'waterpolo player'. my armpits were burning from abrasion! so i spent most of thursday sleeping, i would say i only really woke up at about 5pm. which sucked coz it left me with a massive head, back and neck ache, but at the same time left me still feeling even more sleepy! wtf!

today was slightly better i guess. morning was spent in camp chaokenging again. followed by easy training at acjc with the safsa waterpolo guys. training was very light, but still i dont think its good for someone who is recovering from illness. then we dota-ed, which i should have found very fun because 1) my team won both games 2) andre played like sh*t and was the arse of everyones ridicule, alas, i still felt 'sian'.

my stomach has also been in a perpetual state of discomfort recently. bad colic. with my poorish health i think i must have dropped at least 3kg recently. sigh not looking forward to having to gain it all back again.

its not all bad though, i do have more positive things to talk about, but not tonight. i shall also post up pics of my other 'happenings' once i get them from that davis.

good night!

2006-01-20T00:07:00.000+08:00

i really have quite a lot to talk about (including bangkok:), so i really should update soon before i forget everything.

ive been daaaammmnn lazy these days. shall go "zig zag" now. haha.

day off, nice cars, prep for bangkok

2006-01-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

ok plenty of updates.

i woke up to find my finger perfectly normal, so ended up going to work.

the funniest thing happened later at work. zhiloong and terence, i had to give so-called "swimming lessons" to some of the girls who will be representing us in the Navy swimming meet. teaching swimming is hard! having learnt how to swim by watching others and copying, it was difficult explaining some of the concepts and theory, coz i dont know them myself hahah!

anyways my boss made a bet with me: swim 50m on a single breath of air. the bet was that if i failed, he would get a free lunch and if i succeded, i would get FRIDAY OFF!!! hahah my boss is cool. im a cheapskate! hehe.

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took my friend to see the rich-arse-with-manymany-cars-house. can you believe such a place exists in singapore!!!!!???????? i think the total value of all his cars can easily reach 10million bucks. his house is somewhat of a well known 'tourist attraction' for car enthusiasts here. wow. drool...

left to right: Ferrari F512M, Ferrari F50, Ferrari Enzo, Pagani Zonda C12 S, Lamborghini Murcielago

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im off tomorrow morning to bangkok with the sonnies! in typical sonny tradition the whole thing was last minute, tickets bought only on wednesday haha. i hope nothing screws up! woo hoo! will be back tuesday, take care! bye!!

cause for alarm?

2006-01-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

im worried. there is something wrong with my "extensor digitorum minimi", did i get that right?

freak. basically i can curl all the fingers of my left hand normally but i cant 'pull back' my little pinkie beyond the normal relaxed position. it feels dead when i do that. wtfwtf! wake up little finger!

this condition appeared out of no where, i hope its nothing too major. but it would be majorly anti-climatic if it just disappeared tomorrow. coz if not i would have the perfect excuse to see the doctor and pon camp. this would be the first time in a very long time where i would be going to the gp genuinely needing medical help instead of just needing an mc.

i used to be totally guai, and not have this bad 'chaokeng' attitude. you learn it in the army.

updates updates

2005-12-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

been a pretty hectic 2 weeks. a lot of things have happened (some very interesting). as such, have been pretty tired and havent really had the inspiration to blog, till tonight. anyways some general conclusions from this weekend:

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there are many ways to seek fulfillment when you are feeling empty. some work, some only for a while. but everything, when taken to extremes, makes things worse. for now on i shall stick to these 5 safe items and rules for "fulfillment":

1) exercise - endorphins are the best high, and besides i need it.
2) reading - wholesome and intellectual
3) practice guitar - enriching, and i do suck. so need it too
3) sleeping - my fav friend, im sorry i have been ignoring you:(
4) hanging with close friends - i dun wanna be in too many new environments or situations, they can be stressful.
5) and i shall not be too generous with myself.
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i discovered with a shock at how much weight ive lost. im scrawny! and white! argh! kinda weird, people exercise to lose weight but i do it to maintain and gain. clubbing is VERY bad for your physique. lazy to exercise....

ok all that aside, i had a really nice christmas eve. a simple but VERY delicious dinner at a coffeeshop with some close relatives. they brought their dog along. amazing to see a dog so well behaved, wouldnt like to think of what it would be like if i brought my monsters along.

shut up. i know i have a big nose. bad photo. look at Candy and ignore me pls.

then after that had a gathering at janice's place with the melbourne gang. man, she had some amazing food at her place. stuff like "caviar spread", "beef with caramelized onions", "truffle sauce", i think, cant remember she will kill me for getting the food all wrong i know it. anyways i was still way too full after my dinner so i didnt eat. then i got hungry after they packed up... :(

eric, michelle, yanice, yandao, leo, sean

sonny adventures

2005-12-27T21:13:00.000+08:00

haha i think its about time to dedicate a single post to my retarded group of best friends: the sonnies.

this is a hilarious video. its a ritual that kerby and chris will fight to get into the front seat of my car. was lucky enough to catch this occasion on video, its hilarious hahahaha. you have to understand, that i only managed to catch about the last half of the battle, so they were exhausted from fighting and bryan and i were exhausted from laughing. its also worth pointing out that these guys will be turning 20 next year.

so without further ado, presenting:

Kerby "cheuk" Kwan VS Christopher "tofu" Ong
In the Fight for the Front Seat of the Car!!
Video 1MB (right-click, save as)

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bryan and tofu

the sonnies went to karaoke on christmas night. i hate karaoke, but lost out by majority vote. anywas we managed to sneak in A LOT of alcohol: a whole bottle of vodka and a whole bottle of gin. bombay sapphire is strong stuff! so before you know it, chris gets sort of drunk and falls asleep.

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zzzzzzzzzzzz. sleeping beauty (not really)

when it was time to leave, he was still sleeping soundly. so we took his shoes, left him there and waited at mcdonalds outside for him. hahaha he was woken up by the staff, and we evily (is there such a word?) ignored all his calls. eventually he emerged from the place without his shoes and looking like a real fool. the staff must have been damn amused. hahahahaha.

the sonnies are planning a holiday trip next year, which is actually pretty scary, considering we have failed in planning a simple movie outing many a time. late, wrong movie times, get lost, no money, forget to inform everyone etc. i can predict the trip will be a big joke and have MANY cock ups. but as kerby said last week during a cock-up failure clubbing trip "as long as we're together we'll be ok".

looking forward to it!!

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"fuck lah"

i am damn spoilt

2005-12-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

christmas came early for me. my mum flew off last night to visit my sister in japan, so she gave me my xmas present early. all i can say is: im damned spoilt. my mum believes music is a good thing (she's right) and really encourages me. i get wayyy more love than i deserve.

i hope to do the guitar justice someday. right now i suck and have a 2 DAMN PRO guitars. shameful. I SHALL PRACTICE!!!

Ibanez JEM7V

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shit i think im in trouble. stupid ass. im just not the type

lost in limbo

2005-12-22T19:28:00.000+08:00

the past few days have been really fun. i said i would stop clubbing so much, but ive already been to ministry of sound twice! hahaha. the place is huge, it rocks. i think chinablack can close down haha. met some really great new people. the stupid thing is i forgot to bring my camera both time:/ shiv

the cars parked outside MoS were amazing. for those who are interested:

4x Lamborghini Gallardos (wow four freeking lamborghinis! they are almost common!)
1x Mercedes-Benz SL55 AMG
1x Ferrari 360 Modena
1x Ferrari F430 Spider *drool*
2x Bentley Continental GT

amazing right? i really should have had my camera. WHERE THE HELL DO THESE PEOPLE GET THEIRMONEY FROM!!??

"so what car do you drive?"

"its not a lamborghiNI!!! its a mitsubiSHI!!!"

haha i laughed ssssoooooooooo hard when i said that. clever joke eh? i have a fantastic sense of humour:) my car is cute ok?

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active or passive? that is the question. hmm i guess between the two, active usually is the way to go. i think im pretty good at passive but i suck at active, which is quite sad i guess. therefore i shouldnt really even try to be active, coz that would just spoil everything. maybe im just not ready yet. hmm

long overdue photos

2005-12-10T02:25:00.000+08:00

ok all the nice photos from the past weeks. almost everyone uses broadband these days so these pics should be no problem:)

the past few days have been damn hectic, been clubbing too much. im broke and tired. had a quiet day at home for a change today.

trinity guys: leo and jon

leo + jon + amanda + me

at essential brew: davis acting cute

andre's turn

more acting cute hehe:p

uh, empty glasses

group

watching football at chjimes with the sonnies

my spontaneous birthday celebration! thanks guys!

the 2 gold medallists

stunned

my cake!

they forced me to lick a whole can of whipped cream off a plate

the aftermath: even my forehead wasnt spared:( andre you better watch out...

bday and other stuff

2005-12-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

okayy... im twenty, which sucks honestly. haha so negative! would like to thank everyone for their wishes, and especially andre who finally got around to posting all the bad photos of me collected in his handphone over the year.

i caught "Mercury Rising" on friday, its basically a freddie mercury tribute show. the singers are ddammmnn pro. ive used to find queen's music a little eccentric and not totally to my tastes, but after the show i think ive really gotten a taste of it. good stuff;)

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i need to be wary, lest i fall in.

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queen/freddie mercury - i want to break free